IMG_1206 Lord, last night I had a choice; go out to eat or stay home, order pizza, and watch a movie. I was so tired, so I ordered the pizza and settled down to watch the movie.  I ended up eating  too much and the movie was full of profanity and disappointing. If I had gone out to eat, at least we would have had good conversation with a good meal. Lord, I followed Your instructions about eating only a half of my meal. I ate only one slice of pizza, but I lost it over the apple desert. I fixed a large serving with ice cream on top, but as I ate this I began to feel guilty.  I left about a third of it because I was  so overwhelmed with guilt. It was such a struggle to let it go. Now I realize what a hold deserts have on me. I do love them so! Lord, help me to let go! Lord, help me to love You more than deserts. Do You want me to start over, back to Day one? Do You want me to give up my deserts as well since it was such a struggle last night?

(My child, do not start over again. The point of eating only half meals is not legalism, but rather to break this stronghold on your life. You now see this how this stronghold works. I want to change your heart. “Create in me a pure heart, O God and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” [Psalm 51:10] This has been your prayer for many years My child. I am now answering your prayer. As your eyes open to the truth, your heart is purifying  and your spirit is becoming stronger and wiser. For the most benefit, some prayers get  answered through a process; this is one that requires process. It is true that I have forgiven your sins and I dwell within the heart of your spirit, but My child we both know that there are also others within your heart as well. I have taken up residence within our heart and I am in the process of cleaning out My temple.  It angers Me to behold the filthiness within My house. My child, I want to purify you.  

As for the movie you watched, full of profanity, stop feeding your spirit with this filth. Just as you get frustrated when you clean your home and someone else trashes what you have worked so hard to clean, so do I. My child, when you feed your spirit trash, you are messing up My house as fast as I can purify and clean it. You have heard the words, “Garbage in, garbage out.” When you feed your spirit garbage, it will reflect garbage. When you feed your spirit purity, you will reflect purity. My child, you have asked that you reflect My Presence to others so that they may see and also want the filling of My Spirit, but I ask you now, “How can you reflect My Spirit when you have filled your spirit with that which is trash? My child, fill your spirit that which is truth, noble, right, pure, love, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy. These characteristics are what I like to decorate the walls of My House. You like to behold beautiful decorations within your home, so do I. You will not allow ugliness and hideous decorations within your house, neither will I.

— Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy- meditate on these  things.    Philippians 4:8 NKJV

— Then He taught, saying to them, “Is it not written, ‘My house shall be called a house of prayer for all nations? but you have made it a den of thieves.” Mark 11:17 NKJV

— Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you,  whom you have from God, and you are not your own?  For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.                           I Corinthians 6:19-20 NKJV

About deborahcrocker

I am a retired public school teacher. I have been married for 44 years to my high school sweet heart. We have two grown children and six grandchildren. For many years I have written my prayers in order to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialog with God. I write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart. This website contains the conversations I had with God concerning my constant struggle with my weight and my compulsion to overindulge in the pleasure of food. I have gained, lost, and regained over 60lbs several times throughout my lifetime. I am now in the process of surrendering this addiction to God’s control and I know He will give me the victory. I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my dialog writings. ”My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” John 10:27 It is my hope and prayer that these dialogs will both encourage and bless you throughout your own journey of breaking free from your addiction. I hope that you will also begin having your own personal dialogs with God. He will speak to your heart as well.I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that He rose again on the third day so that we may have a “new” life both here on Earth and later in Heaven. I also believe that my overeating (gluttony) is a sin (addiction) that has held me in bondage with a constant struggle for most of my adult life. This addiction, like all addictions, has prevented me from living a life to my fullest potential. I have always felt controlled and defeated by this overwhelming compulsion to overeat. This compulsion, at times, has damaged both my confidence and my potential. John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. BUT I know that Jesus Christ has come to set me free! HE IS THE ANSWER! As I surrender the control of my life and desires to His direction and His will, He will set me free from all addictions! He promises and He will make you free too! John 8:36 Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. VICTORY IS COMING!!!
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    so helpful. well written too. thank you, Debbie!

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