IMG_3241Lord, I praise you for all these clothes that are now too big for me, 41 pieces total. Wow!  Now I have the joy of giving them away or trading them for new ones at the consignment shop. I do enjoy shopping for new clothes. You give me all that I need and for  a price I can afford too.  Thank you.

I remember Halloween’s of the past. I’d buy the cheapest candy I could find. I bought candy I didn’t like thinking I wouldn’t eat it. That plan never worked. I always ended up eating whatever was left. It didn’t matter that I didn’t like it. It was candy and I couldn’t throw candy away. So I ate it all.

While I was in this binge mode my thinking was irrational. My sanity disappeared. To binge on cheap yucky candy is insanity. But the compulsion to eat it was stronger than my wish to loss weight. I was always defeated by the Halloween candy. I felt oppressed by the candy. Every year I did the same thing. I developed a fear of candy because it had power over me and made me eat it. It overwhelmed and defeated me every year.

You, Lord had the perfect weight loss plan designed just for me. You knew exactly what  would work. You provided a plan of baby steps so I could experience success. Because of  Your  plan I realized that food was not stronger than me. I was no longer compelled to eat it. Freedom-what a wonderful gift You gave me. I bow before You in praise.

I  bought more candy for this year. Hubby instructed me to buy candy he likes so he could enjoy what was left. He said he hated the cheap candy and it was a waste of money. Thank you Lord, he is learning that one small piece is enough.

Teach us how to enjoy the pleasure of food within Your Presence. It’s not the candy that’s evil. It’s our greedy hearts for selfish pleasure that’s evil. Renew our minds so we can eat with sanity. Renew our hearts so that we want You more than candy. I’m grateful that in my food plan You allow me to have desserts.

Since this new bag of candy has 252 pieces I can have a piece of candy everyday for almost a year. The interesting thing is now that You have given me permission to eat some for  dessert, I’m no longer compelled to consume the bag.  I’m satisfied with just one small piece, maybe two, until the next meal.

I praise You for delivering me from this compulsion to overeat and from the power that candy had over me. You’ve set me free from my enemy and I’ll worship You forevermore. I want to serve You with my life. I love  you Lord.

My child, I love you too. Your yielded heart is My pleasure. I offer unto you abundant life, not life defeated by a bag of candy, but a life of victory. “Victory is Mine saith the Lord.” I will give you victory. I’ve come to set you free from this bondage. No longer will you binge, never again,  for I have given you freedom. Now go and serve others the abundance of your sweets. Remember to share My sweet with them too.

Who remembered us in our lowly state, for His mercy endures forever, and rescued us from our enemies. For His mercy endures forever; who gives food to all flesh, for His mercy endures forever. Psalm 136: 23-26

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. Ephesians 2:8-9


About deborahcrocker

I am a retired public school teacher. I have been married for 44 years to my high school sweet heart. We have two grown children and six grandchildren. For many years I have written my prayers in order to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialog with God. I write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart. This website contains the conversations I had with God concerning my constant struggle with my weight and my compulsion to overindulge in the pleasure of food. I have gained, lost, and regained over 60lbs several times throughout my lifetime. I am now in the process of surrendering this addiction to God’s control and I know He will give me the victory. I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my dialog writings. ”My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” John 10:27 It is my hope and prayer that these dialogs will both encourage and bless you throughout your own journey of breaking free from your addiction. I hope that you will also begin having your own personal dialogs with God. He will speak to your heart as well.I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that He rose again on the third day so that we may have a “new” life both here on Earth and later in Heaven. I also believe that my overeating (gluttony) is a sin (addiction) that has held me in bondage with a constant struggle for most of my adult life. This addiction, like all addictions, has prevented me from living a life to my fullest potential. I have always felt controlled and defeated by this overwhelming compulsion to overeat. This compulsion, at times, has damaged both my confidence and my potential. John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. BUT I know that Jesus Christ has come to set me free! HE IS THE ANSWER! As I surrender the control of my life and desires to His direction and His will, He will set me free from all addictions! He promises and He will make you free too! John 8:36 Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. VICTORY IS COMING!!!
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  1. Donna Day says:


  2. That is true mastery over an addiction when it is unfront of you and you dont mind

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