IMG_3034 Lord, I disappointed You, didn’t I? I knew exactly when I messed up. It was those last two pieces of candy. My feelings were hurt,  I was upset, and I thought they would make me feel better.  As I looked at the candy I felt the draw of Your love saying, “Come to Me. Bring Me your wounded heart. You won’t find love in this candy. Let My love sooth your hurt.”

I felt encouraged and had hope again.  “I don’t need those last two candies. But . . . why not? Go ahead, eat them.” So I did.

Now I realize that was my act of disobedience. You offered fullness of Your love and instead I ate two pieces of candy. I hurt You. I don’t want to hurt You. Please forgive me. It’s my greedy heart I know. I look at food and consider, “How much can I eat? What can I have?” IMG_3749

Change my heart so I only want Your will. Let my thoughts change to, “What is the Lord’s will for me to eat?”

One or two pounds gained is not the issue. The issue is the attitude of my heart. Lord, I give you my heart. Make it want You above all else. Grant me a yielded heart so I will love You with all my heart, all my soul, and all my mind.IMG_9500

My   child, I have plans for you. I need for you to focus on My will to complete those plans. My plans are perfect and to prosper you. If you look to the right or the left, you take your eyes off Me.

Stay focused on Me and grant Me free will in your life and your heart. Then and only then can I fill you with Myself. As you walk according to My plan for you, you are walking in My glory. I am waiting for you now with My arms wide open to receive you.

Come to Me with your hurts, with your pain, with your joy, and with your victories for I am all you need. In My Presence is found pure love. I am the source of all that you have need of. I am your supplier of physical needs. Most of all I am the supplier of the hidden needs of your heart, those you keep hidden from others. I know what they are and only I can supply what you have need of. You are looking for love and confirmation from others. They will disappoint you for they are incapable of fulfilling the love you are seeking. Only I am capable of that love.

You looked for a gift from others to make you feel loved. My child, look to Me for your love for I gave you the greatest gift. I sacrificed all I had, all I was, to show you My love. Come to Me, for I am the source of love. I am all that you need. I love you, My child with all that I am or will be. There is no gift, store-bought  or homemade that can compare to the gift of My complete love.

And as for those two pieces of candy you chose over Me, I do forgive you. It did disappoint Me that after how far we have walked together you still fell for the old tricks of compulsion. My child, two pieces of candy can never take away My love for you.

You will learn how to resist these temptations and you will become stronger as you IMG_9947continue to hold on to Me. It is not weakness to hold on to Me, it is strength. For it takes strength to admit weakness. My child, I am looking forward to this upcoming year with you. I will teach you many things. You will grow and increase in My Spirit. You will walk in victory. Do not be overwhelmed and fearful of what you hear on the news for I am in control. I am in charge and the doomed enemy is set for failure for I always win. How many times must I remind you, ‘Don’t look at what you see, instead look at Me, for I am all that you need.’

I give myself to You Lord, take my life and do with it as You please. Thank you for assurance of Your love. Help me to love You with all my heart. Help me to bring You joy and pleasure.


Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Colossians 3:15 NIV

If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in them and they in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. I John 4:15-16 NIV

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. I John 4:18 NIV

But I trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation. Psalm 13:5 NIVIMG_2312


About deborahcrocker

I am a retired public school teacher. I have been married for 44 years to my high school sweet heart. We have two grown children and six grandchildren. For many years I have written my prayers in order to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialog with God. I write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart. This website contains the conversations I had with God concerning my constant struggle with my weight and my compulsion to overindulge in the pleasure of food. I have gained, lost, and regained over 60lbs several times throughout my lifetime. I am now in the process of surrendering this addiction to God’s control and I know He will give me the victory. I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my dialog writings. ”My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” John 10:27 It is my hope and prayer that these dialogs will both encourage and bless you throughout your own journey of breaking free from your addiction. I hope that you will also begin having your own personal dialogs with God. He will speak to your heart as well.I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that He rose again on the third day so that we may have a “new” life both here on Earth and later in Heaven. I also believe that my overeating (gluttony) is a sin (addiction) that has held me in bondage with a constant struggle for most of my adult life. This addiction, like all addictions, has prevented me from living a life to my fullest potential. I have always felt controlled and defeated by this overwhelming compulsion to overeat. This compulsion, at times, has damaged both my confidence and my potential. John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. BUT I know that Jesus Christ has come to set me free! HE IS THE ANSWER! As I surrender the control of my life and desires to His direction and His will, He will set me free from all addictions! He promises and He will make you free too! John 8:36 Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. VICTORY IS COMING!!!
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8 Responses to GIFT OF LOVE

  1. frances. degruy says:

    I was eating apiece of candy when I stumbled on this site

    I hope I can have that relationship with god to free me from sweets.

  2. Becky Wayne says:

    Beautiful. He and His love are beautiful. Thanks for writing this.

  3. Andy Oldham says:

    WoW! This is so true. Im the same way! Blessings!

  4. corr1220 says:

    I’m so glad you commented on my blog post. I think God will use your blog to help me along my journey! Thanks so much!

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