20131016-044541.jpg   Lord, why am I not losing more weight? Why does it seem I’m going backwards? My scales tell me I’m gaining, but why? I’m eating the same as before. So. . . why am I struggling with the scales now?

I didn’t exercise before and lost over 70 pounds. Now that I’m exercising, why haven’t I lost more weight? I see the finish line of this journey. I need to finish in victory. I need Your help. What’s going on? I don’t understand.



My child, you’re functioning on automatic. It’s not My will that any of My children function at auto drive. I want a fresh new relationship with each of My children every day. Just as you enjoy experiencing life, each new event, and each new conversation with those around you, I want you to experience pleasure in My Presence as well. I miss our fellowship when you’re too busy for Me.

               I laugh because it’s your scales that cause you to turn unto Me to seek My direction. My child, do you know how much joy it brings to Me when you seek My fellowship? It fills My heart with pleasure. Yes, I pleasure in love from My children. It humors Me that it’s your scales causing you to run to Me. I say whatever it takes, I’ll use to gain your attention.

20131009-062822.jpg   Don’t’ think I cause hardships and sufferings just to gain My children’s attention. No,  it’s the Destroyer that is your enemy. His purpose is to kill, steal, and destroy all that is good. My purpose is to intervene for My children and to save them from all that is evil, including themselves. Remember I will never enforce My will or go against Your will, but I will intercede and offer an escape.

 I will use all that is or will be for My glory and to bring about total victory in the life of each of My children as they turn to Me seeking My will. It is My will that ALL live in victory. The sin of man brought about defeat, bondage, and death. I have come to bring about to each one new and abundant life. As you seek Me, I’ll direct your steps to total victory.

  20131117-152444.jpg  You may exercise, it is good for your body. I created your body to move, so move it. This will keep your joints lubricated and loose. But know that it’s more important  you exercise your spirit by focusing more on My Presence and not your measured steps. Your heart leaps when you increase your number of steps and you feel a sense of victory. My child, I long for your heart to leap when you sense My Presence. Make Me the center of your focus for I AM the center of all that is. If I AM your center all else will fall in place exactly as I will it so. I even use your hardships for your good and My glory. My child, I bring forth to you victory, My victory. Now you go forth and share My victory with others.

Uh, Lord? Could it be that maybe I am eating too many deserts? I know I’m eating only half servings as You instructed, but I have eaten two or more half servings. (Hanging my head in shame.)

(I sense laughter.) Why yes My child, two or more servings of desert, half or not is a bit much, don’t you think?   

      But the most important issue isn’t your desert. It’s that I AM the sweetness of your life. I want you to love me more than all else, including deserts.  Love Me with all of your mind, all of your soul, and all of your heart and I will fulfill all the desires of your heart for I will be your heart. 


You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your strength. Deuteronomy 6:5

You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength. This is the first commandment. Mark 12:30



About deborahcrocker

I am a retired public school teacher. I have been married for 44 years to my high school sweet heart. We have two grown children and six grandchildren. For many years I have written my prayers in order to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialog with God. I write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart. This website contains the conversations I had with God concerning my constant struggle with my weight and my compulsion to overindulge in the pleasure of food. I have gained, lost, and regained over 60lbs several times throughout my lifetime. I am now in the process of surrendering this addiction to God’s control and I know He will give me the victory. I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my dialog writings. ”My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” John 10:27 It is my hope and prayer that these dialogs will both encourage and bless you throughout your own journey of breaking free from your addiction. I hope that you will also begin having your own personal dialogs with God. He will speak to your heart as well.I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that He rose again on the third day so that we may have a “new” life both here on Earth and later in Heaven. I also believe that my overeating (gluttony) is a sin (addiction) that has held me in bondage with a constant struggle for most of my adult life. This addiction, like all addictions, has prevented me from living a life to my fullest potential. I have always felt controlled and defeated by this overwhelming compulsion to overeat. This compulsion, at times, has damaged both my confidence and my potential. John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. BUT I know that Jesus Christ has come to set me free! HE IS THE ANSWER! As I surrender the control of my life and desires to His direction and His will, He will set me free from all addictions! He promises and He will make you free too! John 8:36 Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. VICTORY IS COMING!!!
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  1. Cupcake says:

    Dont worry it might be muscle weight or water weight. Keep on going it was like that for me. I started excersizing and i put on 3kg i was devastated but the measuring tale said different . Dont trust the scale, trust the measuring tape.

  2. I agree with Cupcake – measuring is what tells you the truth !

  3. Julie Harris says:

    Your words resonated with me this morning. This is a life long struggle for me as well. We have victory in Jesus- every time we choose Him instead of extra portions of things that are not good for us. Instead of saying I’ll do better tomorrow, I say I’m going to do better right now, and turn to Him to help me. Thanks for sharing your journey with us 🙂

  4. You’re welcome. Today is a new fresh start in Gods Presense. I talked with Him a long time this morning. I also decided to give up my deserts for a little while. Smile .
    It’s going to be a great “losing weight” year! I’m excited to see what God will do.

  5. celebrate your victories and enjoy the lessons learned along the way!

  6. Yes, a measuring tape or a less than forgiving pair of pants and blouse are better barometers. It will take the scale several weeks to get on board with the new exercise plan.

  7. paigeleepq says:

    I read this recently ( and it really was quite a delight to think how our problems lead us to God 🙂

  8. Becky Wayne says:

    Thankful for God’s great love and concern for me! You’ve helped me understand Him better–who He really is!

  9. Awww, Becky, you are so precious. God bless you!

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