IT’S A GOD THING – Part two. (How I lost 72 pounds.)

 

IMG_3366

Christmas 2014- Size 8 dress coat Amazing! Body by God

IMG_3233

Fall 2014 My first “Size 12” jeans since 1974. Amazing- Body by God

IMG_9299

Lunch with Mom- May 2013 Wearing the pink blouse I grew to hate. It still fit at 241 pounds.

Several have asked me, “How have you lost weight? What are you doing?”

This is my story:

Weighing 241 pounds I cried out in desperation to God.        

After 40+ years of struggling with numerous  assorted diets and compulsive overeating with a food addiction.  I was now defeated, hopeless, and broken with a failure complex.  I had reached the end. I wondered just how big would I get? Would I just explode? None of my clothes fit. I wore a pink blouse, the last one that still fit me until I hated it. I waddled when I walked.

I felt like a complete helpless failure. I could not see food, smell food, or even think about food without getting something to eat. Food commercials sent me to the kitchen, the store, or the fast food drive through. Sometimes I’d overeat until I went to bed sick or pass out to sleep it off on the sofa.  Food and the compulsion to overeat controlled me. I was a food drunk.

Then on May 25, 2013, during a personal time with God, I cried, “I can’t stop eating. Do I need to go to a professional counselor for help?”

He spoke to my heart, “I am your counselor. Come to Me.”

“Lord, I’m a failure. I can’t stop eating. I can’t diet anymore.  I’m burned out and I’ve failed all of them. I think I might need to see a counselor.  What can I do?”

“This is what you do. Come to Me for I am your counselor.”

“But Lord, how do eat? I’ve failed every diet.  Please don’t put me on another one.”

IMG_2358

“Eat just the three meals each day with no snacks.”

“But what kind of food do I eat?”

“It doesn’t matter what food you eat, it doesn’t matter how much you eat. I just want you to follow one rule, eat only three meals with no snacks.”

“Lord, can I have a desert with my meal? You know how I love deserts.”

“Yes, you can have your deserts. It doesn’t matter. Just eat the three meals with nothing in between. Do this for forty days.”

I thought, “I can eat anything I want, it doesn’t matter what or how much. . . . I can even have deserts. . . .  Maybe I can do this.”

“Okay Lord, I’ll try this.”

(It took me sixty days to achieve consecutive forty days with three meals and no snacks. The Lord knew I needed to taste success and baby steps was the best I could do. He gave me something I could succeed at even if it did take me sixty days.)

Once I reached that goal, I asked the Lord, “Now what do I do?”

“Now cut your food in half. Continue to eat just three meals a day with no snacks. You can still have anything you want including your desert, just cut it in half. Do this for forty days.”

___________________________

I finished that second forty days and still continue eating three meals a day, half portions, and no snacks. Occasionally I’ll give up deserts. Sometimes I decide to give up other foods for a short time.

When I go out to eat, I ask God to direct me about what to order. Then I eat half and bring the rest home to eat later. This way I feel like I get two meals for the price of one. I get to enjoy eating that meal twice. That’s a good deal.

I do not count calories, carbs,  or servings. I don’t do meal replacements of any kind. I don’t take pills. I haven’t had any surgery for weight loss. I haven’t tried to exercise to lose weight until now.  Now I’m trying to walk 5,000 steps a day to help with the last five pounds of this healing process.

IMG_0408The sweetest time of my day is when I get up before the sun to spend time with the Lord. During this private time with Him, I write my thoughts, meaningful scriptures, prayers and praises in spiral notebooks. It helps me focus. I value this precious sweet time in His Presence. It’s like I’m talking to my very best friend. He is my best friend.

I feel that I’m healed from my excess weight, compulsive overeating, and food addiction. It amazes me when I try on clothes that fit last month and now they’re too big. Food no longer controls me.

I’m free and delivered from obesity.  This weight loss has not been  a fast weight loss, but it has been the easiest weight loss. I am able to live this way.

Hubby asks, “Why didn’t you do this before?”

My answer is, “I never knew about this before. I always tried another diet. I thought I had to diet to lose weight. God told me what to do. He gave me the answer that I’ve been looking for my whole life.”

IMG_2030Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may  obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16

I Need Thee Every Hour

I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord;                                                                   No tender voice like Thine can peace afford.

I need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby;                                                                       Temptations lose their pow’r when Thou  art nigh.

I need Thee every hour, in joy or pain;                                                                                         Come quickly and abide, or life is vain.

I need Thee every hour; teach me Thy will;                                                                                    And Thy rich promises in me fulfill.

I need Thee every hour, most Holy One;                                                                                             Oh, make me Thine indeed, Thou blessed Son

Refrain:                                                                                                                                                         I need Thee, oh, I need Thee;                                                                                                           Every hour I need Thee;                                                                                                                         Oh, bless me now, my Savior                                                                                                                  I come to Thee.

Written by Annie S. Hawkins 1872                                                                                       Copyright: Public Domain

 

About deborahcrocker

I am a retired public school teacher. I have been married for 44 years to my high school sweet heart. We have two grown children and six grandchildren. For many years I have written my prayers in order to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialog with God. I write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart. This website contains the conversations I had with God concerning my constant struggle with my weight and my compulsion to overindulge in the pleasure of food. I have gained, lost, and regained over 60lbs several times throughout my lifetime. I am now in the process of surrendering this addiction to God’s control and I know He will give me the victory. I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my dialog writings. ”My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” John 10:27 It is my hope and prayer that these dialogs will both encourage and bless you throughout your own journey of breaking free from your addiction. I hope that you will also begin having your own personal dialogs with God. He will speak to your heart as well.I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that He rose again on the third day so that we may have a “new” life both here on Earth and later in Heaven. I also believe that my overeating (gluttony) is a sin (addiction) that has held me in bondage with a constant struggle for most of my adult life. This addiction, like all addictions, has prevented me from living a life to my fullest potential. I have always felt controlled and defeated by this overwhelming compulsion to overeat. This compulsion, at times, has damaged both my confidence and my potential. John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. BUT I know that Jesus Christ has come to set me free! HE IS THE ANSWER! As I surrender the control of my life and desires to His direction and His will, He will set me free from all addictions! He promises and He will make you free too! John 8:36 Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. VICTORY IS COMING!!!
This entry was posted in Desiring God, Uncategorized, weight loss and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

17 Responses to IT’S A GOD THING – Part two. (How I lost 72 pounds.)

  1. 18mitzvot says:

    Kudos to you for sticking to the plan. You look great.

  2. Becky Wayne says:

    Exciting journey with God!

  3. It’s interesting to read your blog entry about weight loss. I had to cry out to the Lord the same way about losing weight and me not eating my feelings. I’d eat my feelings no matter what they were. I asked him one night during prayer and since then he’s changed my thinking and I’ve lost 20 lbs in about 5 weeks. I’m not sure why I didn’t consult him to begin with but I’m glad I did. It goes to show that sometimes we need to stop, pray and listen to the Lord for guidance and direction. Jesus never fails!! Thanks for sharing. God bless sister

  4. stopat300 says:

    Congratulations, Deborah. What you’ve achieved is truly fantastic. The reward for your efforts is in those photos. You look great, you really do. After 40-odd years of trying you’ve succeeded, which I’m sure is wonderful for you and your story is also an inspiration to others. Thank you for the support you provide to others on their own journey. You know it means a lot, that it really makes a difference to other people’s lives.

    Once you’ve reached your goal the next phase starts, one that is equally as challenging, and that’s maintaining your weight without putting it all back on again, and I know you have the strength and determination to achieve this.

    Well done 🙂

  5. threehourdiet says:

    You have an amazing story! I love how God helped you!

  6. Pingback: I’m trying something new and was foiled the first night! | threehourdiet

  7. I love this post so much, Deborah!!! It shows that when we follow a “diet” we make that diet our god. When we follow GOD and do what He says, He becomes our LORD and all else falls into place. I base my diet philosophy on 1 Corinthians 10:23 and the First Commandment. It’s a lot less complicated that way. God is so proud of you! “Well done, wise and faithful servant” continue to keep up the good work. Blessings,

    • Thank you Ellie. I looked up your scripture and yes, you are so right. The point is not to follow another set of rules, but to seek God’s will/advice over all that we do and say, including what we eat. I don’t always do exactly right, but I keep seeking and keep trying. It is wonderful to know that if we mess up, He forgives us, picks up our pieces, and gives us strength to get up and start over with a new freshness full of His Presence.
      Thank you so much for the encouragement. I am honored with your words of affirmation.
      Thank you, blessings to you,
      Deborah

    • Also thank you for telling me that God is proud of me. My heart’s desire is to please Him. He is my BFF.

  8. Pingback: The Stuff & The Things: What’s Changing | 365 Fit Journal

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s