Catfish With A Kiss

img_8713It’s after 7p.m. I’m starving. Eating a half tuna wrap for lunch just wasn’t enough. We’ve been visiting out-of-town all day, left for home late, and now he wants to eat supper at this “all you can eat” catfish house on the way. I’m looking at this menu. Lord, help me.

My weight this morning was the lowest ever and I don’t want to mess it up now. This place is stressing me. What do I eat? Broiled catfish? Yuck! I need Your help now, Lord.

You know I’ll never get my money’s worth with this “all you can eat” by only  eating a half plate if that much.  I’d rather go places that let you take food home. But they won’t give you a go-box here and look at the size of those plates. I can’t throw away good catfish. Sigh. What do I do?

It’s my rule- Never order what costs more than what he orders. But he’s ordering the “all you can eat” special and it’s the lowest priced item on this menu. How can they do that? I wonder if they’re losing money on that deal? Hmm,  . . . this place is jam-packed full of people. It seems everyone is getting the “all you can eat.” If I ate all that, I’d leave this place sicker than a dog.

I love fried catfish, but there’s no way I can eat it all. Lord, help me. Please.


Hmmm, . . . just small two spoonful’s of slaw, maybe three. They brought a huge bowl of small hushpuppies with cheese sauce. Put four on the plate. Eat only three. Be careful. Seasoned fries, oh my! Maybe a half handful, not many. Lord help me.

Hot fried catfish. Yum! I’m starving. Okay, be careful. Eat slower. Take little bites. Slow, slow. Oh my, they’re wonderful. The plate came with five pieces of fish, so I ate two and a half and left the others thinking maybe he’ll eat them. He did. I can’t stand to throw good food away. Then he ordered more. What? At least he’s getting his moneys worth.

I was so hungry when we got here, but not now. Look at all this food left. What I ate was so wonderful, I could easily eat more. Oh Lord, I want more. I want all of it and more of it. It’s so good. Fight it girl. You’ve come too far to lose it all over catfish. Fight it, you’re strong, fight it. Let it go. Let the food go. It’s not worth it. But it’s so good, I love it. I want it and more of it too.

Feeling panic, “Lord, I really want to eat until I’m sick. I know it would be so good. Help me fight thisIMG_6213 urge to eat it all.” I looked at the food left on the table and panic increased.

Temptation screamed, “You can’t leave this food. That’s wasteful. How can you walk away and leave it? You know you want it. They’ll even bring more if you ask. You could eat until you can’t hold another bite. You know it’s good. Now go ahead, finish it. Eat the rest. You can start over tomorrow. It’ll be ok. Nobody will ever know. Go ahead, eat it all.”

Then I remembered the Hersey’s kiss in my purse and popped it in my mouth. With the sweet taste my breathing became easier and calmness returned. I leaned back to finish my tea. The “all you can eat” urge was silent. I looked at the table covered with food with no desire. Temptation had left. God answered my prayer with one Kiss of 22 calories. Thank you Lord.IMG_6672


No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. 1 Corinthians 10:13
In my distress I called upon the Lord, And cried out to my God; He heard my voice from His temple, And my cry came before Him, even to His ears. Psalm 18:6


About deborahcrocker

I am a retired public school teacher. I have been married for 44 years to my high school sweet heart. We have two grown children and six grandchildren. For many years I have written my prayers in order to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialog with God. I write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart. This website contains the conversations I had with God concerning my constant struggle with my weight and my compulsion to overindulge in the pleasure of food. I have gained, lost, and regained over 60lbs several times throughout my lifetime. I am now in the process of surrendering this addiction to God’s control and I know He will give me the victory. I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my dialog writings. ”My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” John 10:27 It is my hope and prayer that these dialogs will both encourage and bless you throughout your own journey of breaking free from your addiction. I hope that you will also begin having your own personal dialogs with God. He will speak to your heart as well.I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that He rose again on the third day so that we may have a “new” life both here on Earth and later in Heaven. I also believe that my overeating (gluttony) is a sin (addiction) that has held me in bondage with a constant struggle for most of my adult life. This addiction, like all addictions, has prevented me from living a life to my fullest potential. I have always felt controlled and defeated by this overwhelming compulsion to overeat. This compulsion, at times, has damaged both my confidence and my potential. John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. BUT I know that Jesus Christ has come to set me free! HE IS THE ANSWER! As I surrender the control of my life and desires to His direction and His will, He will set me free from all addictions! He promises and He will make you free too! John 8:36 Therefore, if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. VICTORY IS COMING!!!
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9 Responses to Catfish With A Kiss

  1. says:

    I can never eat just one Hersheys kiss.

  2. birdieklh says:

    Great story – thanks for sharing! Just like our God to give you a “kiss” . . . my favorite fish is Pangasius . . . it is kind of related to catfish, but it is almost sweet to the taste. We have it almost once a week, but I don’t put on all the breading like restaurants . . . yummy! High protein, low calorie goodness!

  3. susieshy45 says:

    Wonderful how you were led out of temptation !
    I have been treated by the Lord an entirely different way. I have been on a big binge over the past so many weeks-eating chocolates by the dozen and especially when I am tired, sugar in my tea and coffee, chocolate cake, most things which I should not have eaten, I ate. This went on for about 3 months.
    Last week, my body gave up. After a packet of fried snacks, I developed the worst migraine ever. I recovered from it somehow. The next day, I ate the same thing again- you would think I would have learned something from my experience. No.
    The second day I developed an even more severe headache, feeling like throwing up, and the whole migraine works. With a lot of tablets, I managed to cure this headache too.
    Finally last Friday, I decided to give up- I couldn’t do it any more. So I decided to eat three meals a day of wholesome food and no drinks or anything in between. The food would all be home cooked by me, so I know what goes into it. Now its three days – my headache is better but the scales are just the same.
    I think I am being led here. Please pray for me.
    God bless,

    • Dear precious Susie,
      I have been there so many times, except for the headaches. I can’t count how many times I waddled to bed after eating everything. But God is so good. After 41 years of failure I cried out in desperation and that is when He lifted my feet out of the miry clay. Be encouraged my friend. You’re on your way.

  4. susieshy45 says:

    Thank you Debbie. I needed your encouraging words. My weight is going up. But on a positive, we went to a beach resort yesterday and we had a scavenger hunt where clues were all over the island. I could easily walk around and clocked more than 7500 steps in an hour- it was marvellous- no tiredness or anything. So my physical fitness is ok.
    Lots of love,

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